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"If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more."
"What is grief, if not love persevering?"
"You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath"
Calling all readers, lovers of poetry and music, screen and stage. Quote collecters and lyric hoarders, unleash your archive. Each prompt must contain a quote - you can combine them, add commentary, link to articles, and more. Steal from a literary classic, or WeVerse drama. Have fun!
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Minghao + Ocean Vuong
The most beautiful part of your body
is where it's headed. & remember,
loneliness is still time spent
with the world.
Ocean Vuong - night sky with exit wounds
Hoshi/Anyone; "Beauty is terror"
Thinking about these two quotes together and the idea of on/off-stage personas:
"Beauty is terror. Whatever we call beautiful we tremble before it. And what could be more terrifying or beautiful, to the Greeks to to our own, than to lose control completely?" - Donna Tartt, the Secret Histories
"I am calm in everyday life but when I put on my in-ear device and step on stage, I can feel the tension and hear the cheers getting louder as the music gets louder. When the staff tells me it's time to step on stage, I feel something boil inside me. I feel it steaming inside and I think I have to give a burst of something, spill what is inside me." - Hoshi in Hit the Road Ep. 04
Any ship; "It's been so many years"
Hello, hello there, is this Martha?
This is old Tom Frost
And I am calling long distance
Don't worry 'bout the cost.
'Cause it's been forty years or more
Now Martha please recall
Meet me out for coffee
Where we'll talk about it all.
Tom Watts - Martha
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[FILL] mirror with three faces
Major Tags: idolverse, implied sexual content
Additional Tags: repressing emotions! josh hong vs seventeen's joshua, feeling like a foreigner in your parents' country
Permission to remix: pls ask
a/n: you got me with the sufjan that's for sure. happy bday joshy!
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The skinship is one of the hardest things to get used to. Joshua doesn’t think he's insecure about his manhood or whatever. He’s bro-hugged plenty of his church friends. No stranger to friendly affection.
But it’s different here, in trainee life. Pushed to your physical, emotional, and mental limits, and the only comfort in your fellow trainees. Despite this, Joshua is still awkward around them. Tensing at Seokmin’s random back-hugs and Soonyoung nuzzles. He doesn’t dislike it, he’s just. Not used to it.
Things stay stagnant until Jeonghan and Seungcheol decide to carve their place in his life. Without his permission. Jeonghan, who rests his sweaty head on Joshua’s shoulder after every dance practice. Seungcheol, who is the first to roughhouse with Joshua, pinning him on the floor with a victorious smile.
Both of them shake him up entirely. Greedy, childish hands on a soda bottle, shaking and shaking until he spills over.
–
He and Jeonghan share a hotel room on tour. Joshua understands touch better as a language now, in the way Jeonghan absentmindedly pets at his hair, his cheeks, his neck. His returning touches are brief, but just as meaningful. He hopes.
“Let’s invite Cheollie,” Jeonghan says, mischief lighting up his face. “Hyung night!”
Joshua tilts his head. “Okay.”
Seungcheol is a real cuddler, snatching Joshua by the waist and pushing him to bed. Jeonghan clambers up on his other side, cackling like a goblin.
Joshua feels trapped by both of them. His shirt has ridden up a little, the warmth of Seungcheol’s fingers on bare skin coupled with Jeonghan’s hot breath in his ear, a shock to his system.
He focuses on laughing, forcing it out of his body. There’s nothing else he can do. Nothing that he’ll allow, anyways.
–
Joshua doesn’t feel like a “hyung” the way Jeonghan and Seungcheol do. Even though Seungcheol’s the youngest in his family, he takes to leader so naturally. Jeonghan, an actual older brother, takes care of everyone in a lot of little ways.
Joshua doesn’t measure up. Still the awkward, foreign interloper. So, he listens. He lets everyone talk to him, even though his Korean is still clumsy. He holds his hands out, a helpless gesture, surprised at how many of them want to latch on.
–
“Shua is good at this,” Seungcheol murmurs once, head in Joshua’s lap, Joshua scratching at his scalp with his free hand as he scrolls through his phone.
“Joshuji take care of me,” Jeonghan will whine after a night of drinking, clinging until Joshua is practically carrying him to bed.
Joshua pulled his hands away from them long time ago, but these two still have a firm hold on him.
–
Fanservice is a different animal than skinship. Pointed encouragement from management shoved Seungcheol and Jeonghan together in their early days. The two oldest, popularity skyrocketing.
Joshua stands on the outside, amused smile painted on. Clown makeup. At every fansign, watching his friends all over each other, breathing a fantasy to life.
“They’re too good at it,” Jihoon mutters under his breath, a perpetual fanservice anti. “It almost feels real.”
Joshua’s smile nearly cracks.
He knows it’s real.
–
The thing is, Joshua has worked too hard to risk anything. Moving here, burying parts of himself that were unsuitable for idol life. Navigating between Josh Hong and Hong Jisoo to become Seventeen’s Joshua. Reshaping, remodeling, recreating.
He’s worked too goddamn hard. He can’t risk it. Not for Jeonghan. Not for Seungcheol.
Not for both of them.
–
He walks into the room he’s sharing with Seungcheol, and Jeonghan is in bed with him. Their bodies curled together, the two of them shirtless. Jeonghan lifts his head, the skin of his cheeks pink. A peach, juicy and inviting. His mouth looks swollen and Joshua’s own dries.
Seungcheol looks up too, pretty eyes hooded. “Shua,” he rasps in a tone Joshua has only ever heard in dreams. “Come to bed?”
“I forgot I promised Vernon something,” he replies faintly. “Sorry.” Turning around before Jeonghan can protest. If Jeonghan speaks too, Joshua will be lost.
He thinks he hears the wet sound of a kiss before he exits. He walks quicker, ignoring the silent scream building in him, begging for him to turn around. Go back to them.
–
“If you’re struggling, I want you to tell me.” Seungcheol is serious, but sincere, saying the words slowly so that there’s no chance for Joshua to misunderstand. “You can rely on me, Jisoo. Okay?”
“Okay,” Joshua replies, knowing very well he’s never going to do so. Seungcheol, who’s been here forever, talented and hard-working and much more deserving than Joshua ever will be. Seungcheol, who already takes care of everyone. He wouldn’t dare.
Jeonghan is the one he ends up telling. “It’s too hard.” He has his face buried in his knees, unable to look Jeonghan in the face as he confesses. “I’m going to call my mom, I’m going to go back - “
He’s ready to babble, English mixing with Korean, when Jeonghan forces his head up.
“I’m here,” Jeonghan speaks in the same, measured way Seungcheol does. “It is too hard. But I’m here. Try a little longer. With me. Okay?”
It’s Jeonghan asking, so Joshua doesn’t have much of a choice. “Okay,” he agrees helplessly.
–
Jeonghan and Seungcheol taking a hiatus at the same time hits Joshua hard. He represses it, he’s the oldest in the group right now and that means something. Jihoon and Soonyoung are good at taking the leader roles, but Joshua needs to be the hyung. Paints the smile, holds hands and wipes tears.
He’d always known he wasn’t much without those two, but it’s sobering to actually live through it.
Are you eating well? he texts in a group chat with only them. He’s worn out, Seokmin sleeping beside him. The I miss you is implied, obvious. Joshua is vulnerable enough to actually type it out.
I love you, Seungcheol sends back.
Idiot, Jeonghan replies. Send me a selca!
–
“Come to bed,” Jeonghan orders. Despite his tone, he looks just as nervous as Seungcheol. Matching hope in their eyes, staring right through Joshua standing in the doorway. They’ve been waiting for him, all this time.
They hold their hands out, and Joshua finally takes them.
“Okay,” he says.
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this is so good.
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- LANGUAGE is something that can ACTUALLY be SO personal,
- tfw the exhausting futility of being everyone's best listener while not letting anyone else in .......... "He holds his hands out, a helpless gesture, surprised at how many of them want to latch on." WILDLY SWINGING MY ARMS AROUND RN
cannot form a coherently formatted reply and for that i am sorry but know that this is marvelous. thank u so much <333
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language is something that can be SOOO personal! it means so much! shua being surprised at people wanting to latch on to him!! the unbearable pain of being known and wanting to be known... thank YOU so much!
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words idk what they are this is unreal,
rose xx
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