Wow, I love this! The mortification of being out of control knowing you're about to do what you would have never done if the choice were yours... “No,” he gasps, words tumbling out, addressed mostly to his traitorous body, “No, I won’t do this. Not this. I can’t. Not him.” Not him! [shrieks]

+ the jihan in this too... so lovely. Thank you Klav!!