oh my god,,,, oh wow. what an incredible chan moment to tie in, to briefly make real through this fill-- i'm kinda really torn-up. but also so relieved that this was not actually Our lee chan's fate!
i absolutely loved the juxtaposition of "chan should be fine. he's driven and talented and has years ahead of him... lee chan is twenty-one years old, but he carries himself like someone much older". like oh man.. the jaws of growing up really snapping down on our beautiful, determined, beaten-down lee chan. it's really wonderful how you explored... that helpless feeling of being looked up to as a slightly older 20-something. of struggling so hard with even how to help ourselves, of constantly learning just how few answers we hold in our hands. of coming to terms with the inevitable loss of each person's seemingly endless potential. O, the regret, the guilt, the grief of our 20's! you did such a beautiful job.
Re: blasting the aloneness wide open [FILL]
oh my god,,,, oh wow. what an incredible chan moment to tie in, to briefly make real through this fill-- i'm kinda really torn-up. but also so relieved that this was not actually Our lee chan's fate!
i absolutely loved the juxtaposition of "chan should be fine. he's driven and talented and has years ahead of him... lee chan is twenty-one years old, but he carries himself like someone much older". like oh man.. the jaws of growing up really snapping down on our beautiful, determined, beaten-down lee chan. it's really wonderful how you explored... that helpless feeling of being looked up to as a slightly older 20-something. of struggling so hard with even how to help ourselves, of constantly learning just how few answers we hold in our hands. of coming to terms with the inevitable loss of each person's seemingly endless potential. O, the regret, the guilt, the grief of our 20's! you did such a beautiful job.