THIS WAS SOOOOO GOOD im clenching my first really hard right.... i don't even know where to begin... first of all in 2022 i am working towards writing canon compliant + learning to appreciate fic rooted in real life instead of AUs, my weakness. i've always been hesitant about the genre but i love reading it ESPECIALLY when it's so well done like in here.
like pb said, i love how you focused on two Very Real Things (cheols break from OTY and chan either being the youngest in svt or leader of a boygroup that never came to be) but also how you kept weaving the themes of mentorship / that age gap / how chan is the youngest but acts so old vs. seungcheol's sudden realization that he's the oldest + people have to look up to him when he was used to being the youngest in the family
chan gnaws on his lower lip, and the illusion breaks instantly - he looks every bit the child he is. seungcheol isn't very old, either, but eighteen feels like generations away / lee chan is twenty-one years old, but he carries himself like someone much older - there's a heaviness to his eyes that seungcheol doesn't think he had at twenty-one.
AND AND AND THE BITS AT THE END FROM SEUNGCHEOLS MIND... why did you think it was a good idea to ask me for advice? seungcheol almost cuts back. i barely knew anything more than you did. between the two of us, i thought you had a better head on your shoulders. the admittance that sometimes even if it looks like you've got it all down from the outside looking in we are all terrified on the inside.
i'll be thinking about this for a very long time thank u for writing..
one last part: all the time, he wants to say. sometimes, i don't think i'm strong enough for this. i wake up and i think someone else should be doing my job.
but to say that would be to tell chan that he's wasted the past seven years of his life chasing a dream that turns into a nightmare that you never know when you'll be able to wake up from.
so instead, he shrugs. "it's hard. but i'm not sure that anyone else could lead the group and have it work.""
Re: blasting the aloneness wide open [FILL]
like pb said, i love how you focused on two Very Real Things (cheols break from OTY and chan either being the youngest in svt or leader of a boygroup that never came to be) but also how you kept weaving the themes of mentorship / that age gap / how chan is the youngest but acts so old vs. seungcheol's sudden realization that he's the oldest + people have to look up to him when he was used to being the youngest in the family
chan gnaws on his lower lip, and the illusion breaks instantly - he looks every bit the child he is. seungcheol isn't very old, either, but eighteen feels like generations away / lee chan is twenty-one years old, but he carries himself like someone much older - there's a heaviness to his eyes that seungcheol doesn't think he had at twenty-one.
AND AND AND THE BITS AT THE END FROM SEUNGCHEOLS MIND...
why did you think it was a good idea to ask me for advice? seungcheol almost cuts back. i barely knew anything more than you did. between the two of us, i thought you had a better head on your shoulders. the admittance that sometimes even if it looks like you've got it all down from the outside looking in we are all terrified on the inside.
i'll be thinking about this for a very long time thank u for writing..
one last part:
all the time, he wants to say. sometimes, i don't think i'm strong enough for this. i wake up and i think someone else should be doing my job.
but to say that would be to tell chan that he's wasted the past seven years of his life chasing a dream that turns into a nightmare that you never know when you'll be able to wake up from.
so instead, he shrugs. "it's hard. but i'm not sure that anyone else could lead the group and have it work.""