He stares at the soft touch of Minghao’s fingers and wonders. this followed by It would feel good, if Minghao touched him. Joshua wouldn’t tense up like he usually does. He wouldn’t squirm away or push Minghao’s hands away. He’d be comfortable with Minghao. Safe. i'm gnawing on my own fist in agony rn lol!!!!!!! he's noticed minghao's hands!!!! HE WOULD BE COMFORTABLE WITH HIM.... HE WOULD FEEL SAFE... I'M GONNA SCREAM ABOUT IT I THINK. I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE.

you got just the right level of aching loneliness and want i'm so in awe! the way josh feels like there's something wrong with him, the way he wants it so badly but can't voice it and can't let himself have it... everything was completely perfect. like you saw inside my brain honestly! thank you so much for writing and sharing this!!!!!!! love you ♡♡♡