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deadwine ([personal profile] deadwine) wrote in [community profile] 17hols 2021-12-30 07:29 am (UTC)

Re: [FILL] sick w/o you

so turns out i'm never getting over this. like how could you give me SO MUCH HISTORY in 500 words, just tease me with all these intimate romantic fucking details and then stop writing??????????????????????????????????????

i keep reading this and feeling like a kid being given their favourite chocolate for BREAKFAST. and then i read it again and feel like that ALL OVER AGAIN.

the minghao-gaze sits so heavy on this one gosh, this line:
It turns out video calls don’t do him justice. Jungkook has the presence of a goddamn deity.

THIS ENTIRE SECTION I WAS JUST KICKINF MY LEGS OUT LIKE, Did you know you were the first boy I ever had a crush on? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? THE FIRST BOY? Like I totally imagine I NEED U/RUN ERA JK on stage and Minghao just, looking and looking for two years? Before the groupchat? And the way jk greets him it's like oh he took no time at all to catch up to all the love Minghao had been holding onto--or did he? SO MUCH TEASING IN WHAT YOU"VE CHOSEN TO REVEAL AND WHAT YOU HAVEN'T.

And then you hit me with this:
Did you know I’m gonna buy you a house one day? With a balcony overlooking the sea, just like you’ve always wanted. I swear I’ll do it.

I...I need to know where's the house with the balcony, did they make it, which city did they decide on, do they have any dogs, I am delirious with the need to see this future, balcony with the fucking sea view for a boy from Busan ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Then these lines:

Five years catch in his throat. AGAIN. So much history in so little it has my two brain cells boinging inside my skull like a ping pong ball

How dramatic love is. thinking about gmat and the ridiculousness of intimacy all over again

Jungkook sinks into his chest.

Minghao is so glad to be in his body right now.


straight up bawling with how romantic this is. ways to say i love you without saying i love you, this might be one of my absolute favourite lines from you

i know i said this already but i feel soooo full of care and love and attention, this is like the best gift i can get, i will never fear for consequences again if this is what i get in return, i love this more than most things i have read this year already like yeah im biased, but so what. you have planted an entire album of possibilities in my brain with these two and im catatonic but grateful. ily.

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