god i feel a little bit insane after reading this. and its free???????? i could feel the real grit n raw desperation oozing out of chan in this one & the way u painted the atmosphere was so beautiful it’s gonna haunt me for a while. esp “No sir,” Chan spits out, cheeky. Still alive. Some of his blood lands on Vernon’s cheek. Seungkwan pushes him away, but Chan pictures it staining Vernon’s skin. Always with him. & the coldness of vernon contrasted by how he actually acts..