ok hui i read this last night and came back to my laptop to Properly write this but YOU!!!!! YOU!!!!!! i say this every time but i love ur brain so much its so sexy . not only that but you have such an amazing way with words that makes me so ;___; i rly cried reading this one i did. pacrim was done so beautifully and altho the grief exploration was stupid sad u wrote it with such grace that it felt gentle n aching n tender
going to quote u with certain lines that i love the most and will try to refrain from throwing this whole thing back at u > “Hansol-ssi, are you sure you’re feeling up to this?” she asks him gently, hands hovering around him like she’s afraid he’ll fall. “There’s no shame in trying again tomorrow.” plus the paragraph after it "his body never does what he wants it to, anymore" makes me feel hansol's pain on some other level... just the idea that he's so lost w/o seungkwan/dealing with the loss that he feels so magnificently deep but also having to live w the fact that he's the one that survived and everyone else watching him constantly, n treating him like he's fragile. it would have hurt less if u stabbed me > slight 218 moment. yes > "Hansol doesn’t mind, even if it makes it harder to eat the oranges. It’s grounding, in a way, to be held so tightly and so quietly. Soonyoung never treats him like he’s fragile but he always reminds Hansol that he’s there." screaming into my fist . not u writing love simply, just how it exists (physically) but me knowing it is There (emotionally) > think someone else brought this up but "You don’t have to love the vessel you’re in, only the person in it with you." ouchies > also "Because Hansol only wants to remember him as he was, happy or sad or angry but always looking forward with the knowledge that they would carry on together, but all he can see at night is Seungkwan in the worst moment, in pain, right before the end. It feels like the worst disservice to him. Hansol could hate himself for it." OUCHIES
i loved everything about this i could probably talk on and on about it for hours the way u crafted YEARNING ACHING LOVING (and the eventual loss) in so few words [about reading in between the walls] absolutely astounds me hui... ur truly a genius..not to mention soonsol dynamics (with tip of the hat to verkwan/snwu past) made me go insane. there is something very dear to me about the idea that someone else understands u and truly Sees ur pain/suffering and is gentle enough to take it away without being cruel about it. ty for writing
Re: [FILL] home is an extension of the body
going to quote u with certain lines that i love the most and will try to refrain from throwing this whole thing back at u
> “Hansol-ssi, are you sure you’re feeling up to this?” she asks him gently, hands hovering around him like she’s afraid he’ll fall. “There’s no shame in trying again tomorrow.” plus the paragraph after it "his body never does what he wants it to, anymore" makes me feel hansol's pain on some other level... just the idea that he's so lost w/o seungkwan/dealing with the loss that he feels so magnificently deep but also having to live w the fact that he's the one that survived and everyone else watching him constantly, n treating him like he's fragile. it would have hurt less if u stabbed me
> slight 218 moment. yes
> "Hansol doesn’t mind, even if it makes it harder to eat the oranges. It’s grounding, in a way, to be held so tightly and so quietly. Soonyoung never treats him like he’s fragile but he always reminds Hansol that he’s there." screaming into my fist . not u writing love simply, just how it exists (physically) but me knowing it is There (emotionally)
> think someone else brought this up but "You don’t have to love the vessel you’re in, only the person in it with you." ouchies
> also "Because Hansol only wants to remember him as he was, happy or sad or angry but always looking forward with the knowledge that they would carry on together, but all he can see at night is Seungkwan in the worst moment, in pain, right before the end. It feels like the worst disservice to him. Hansol could hate himself for it." OUCHIES
i loved everything about this i could probably talk on and on about it for hours the way u crafted YEARNING ACHING LOVING (and the eventual loss) in so few words [about reading in between the walls] absolutely astounds me hui... ur truly a genius..not to mention soonsol dynamics (with tip of the hat to verkwan/snwu past) made me go insane. there is something very dear to me about the idea that someone else understands u and truly Sees ur pain/suffering and is gentle enough to take it away without being cruel about it. ty for writing