oh my GOD? as i was reading this i was pouting harder and harder the further i went lol. you said trying to write the 'before' scenes made you too sad so i wasn't expecting this to also be so heart-wrenching. ugh. mingyu's efforts, all the little anecdotes showing the ways he keeps trying to get more out of jeonghan, the metaphor of tossing the pebbles at his window .. the self-sacrifice of it all. ;-; so good. so terrible. i love it.