Ship/Member: wonwoo-centric but soonwoo Major Tags: mcd(sort of) Additional Tags: soulmate!au, freeform, multiple lives, reincarnation, i saw you in a dream Permission to remix: Yes
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Wonwoo dreams a lot, and he dreams about a lot of things; beaches and forests and large cities and small towns, he dreams about being a farmer or a writer or a thief. But his favorite dreams are the ones where Soonyoung is there. Soonyoung, and his soft hands, and his kind smile, and his warm body against Wonwoo’s cold one– Soonyoung, with his palms stretched out towards him, saying ‘you found me’ and ‘I missed you’.
Yes, those are his favorite dreams. The ones where he gets to hold Soonyoung, and he gets to love him, because now– here, in this life, he doesn’t. Wonwoo isn’t even sure Soonyoung exists.
He thinks he might’ve been reborn in the wrong world, or in the wrong body– he doesn’t think he belongs somewhere where Soonyoung isn’t. But it’s not like he hasn’t tried it before.
Wonwoo’s been a farmer and a writer and a thief, and at some point he stopped trying to figure out if it matters– sometimes Soonyoung is there, and sometimes he isn’t. Sometimes Soonyoung is there and he doesn’t love Wonwoo back, and that’s okay too. Seeing him is enough.
But Wonwoo prefers the ones where Soonyoung loves him. He prefers it like this; he and Soonyoung grow up together, they’re friends, and then they’re lovers, and they spend the rest of their days intertwined until one of them has to leave again, disappear into the sky and float around, all their atoms, until they’re pushed and molded back into a new body.
He prefers it when Soonyoung dies first. He doesn’t like the idea of leaving Soonyoung alone to mourn him– Wonwoo is used to that part by now. He’s sat at Soonyoung’s grave a hundred times.
Soonyoung has been blonde and ginger and dark haired, and always, Wonwoo has loved him.
And always, in every life, Wonwoo dreams about Soonyoung– that’s how he remembers. Every life they’ve lived together comes back to him in dreams; he writes them down, puts them into art and music and stories and hopes that if Soonyoung’s out there somewhere, out of reach, he’ll see it and remember.
He’s never sure if Soonyoung’s going to remember. Sometimes he does, and sometimes he doesn’t– Wonwoo doesn’t mind either way. The best part about Soonyoung is that he’s Soonyoung, in every life, and whether he remembers Wonwoo or not isn’t important.
In the lifetimes where Wonwoo finds Soonyoung, he can’t help but wonder if this will be the last one; is he going to see Soonyoung again? How long will it be? How many lifetimes does he have to wait before he gets to hold him again?
There’s never an answer. The universe doesn’t answer.
Or, Wonwoo supposes, the answer is this– it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter how many lifetimes it takes, Wonwoo is never going to stop looking; he’s always going to dream about Soonyoung and wonder; where are you? Are you happy?
He hopes Soonyoung is happy. He hopes Soonyoung dreams about parties and amusement parks and tigers who can talk.
Wonwoo will keep dreaming about Soonyoung; and he’ll wait for a life where he doesn’t have to dream him up, where Soonyoung is tangible and within reach again.
[FILL] across lifetimes
Major Tags: mcd(sort of)
Additional Tags: soulmate!au, freeform, multiple lives, reincarnation, i saw you in a dream
Permission to remix: Yes
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Wonwoo dreams a lot, and he dreams about a lot of things; beaches and forests and large cities and small towns, he dreams about being a farmer or a writer or a thief. But his favorite dreams are the ones where Soonyoung is there. Soonyoung, and his soft hands, and his kind smile, and his warm body against Wonwoo’s cold one– Soonyoung, with his palms stretched out towards him, saying ‘you found me’ and ‘I missed you’.
Yes, those are his favorite dreams. The ones where he gets to hold Soonyoung, and he gets to love him, because now– here, in this life, he doesn’t. Wonwoo isn’t even sure Soonyoung exists.
He thinks he might’ve been reborn in the wrong world, or in the wrong body– he doesn’t think he belongs somewhere where Soonyoung isn’t. But it’s not like he hasn’t tried it before.
Wonwoo’s been a farmer and a writer and a thief, and at some point he stopped trying to figure out if it matters– sometimes Soonyoung is there, and sometimes he isn’t. Sometimes Soonyoung is there and he doesn’t love Wonwoo back, and that’s okay too. Seeing him is enough.
But Wonwoo prefers the ones where Soonyoung loves him. He prefers it like this; he and Soonyoung grow up together, they’re friends, and then they’re lovers, and they spend the rest of their days intertwined until one of them has to leave again, disappear into the sky and float around, all their atoms, until they’re pushed and molded back into a new body.
He prefers it when Soonyoung dies first. He doesn’t like the idea of leaving Soonyoung alone to mourn him– Wonwoo is used to that part by now. He’s sat at Soonyoung’s grave a hundred times.
Soonyoung has been blonde and ginger and dark haired, and always, Wonwoo has loved him.
And always, in every life, Wonwoo dreams about Soonyoung– that’s how he remembers. Every life they’ve lived together comes back to him in dreams; he writes them down, puts them into art and music and stories and hopes that if Soonyoung’s out there somewhere, out of reach, he’ll see it and remember.
He’s never sure if Soonyoung’s going to remember. Sometimes he does, and sometimes he doesn’t– Wonwoo doesn’t mind either way. The best part about Soonyoung is that he’s Soonyoung, in every life, and whether he remembers Wonwoo or not isn’t important.
In the lifetimes where Wonwoo finds Soonyoung, he can’t help but wonder if this will be the last one; is he going to see Soonyoung again? How long will it be? How many lifetimes does he have to wait before he gets to hold him again?
There’s never an answer. The universe doesn’t answer.
Or, Wonwoo supposes, the answer is this– it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter how many lifetimes it takes, Wonwoo is never going to stop looking; he’s always going to dream about Soonyoung and wonder; where are you? Are you happy?
He hopes Soonyoung is happy. He hopes Soonyoung dreams about parties and amusement parks and tigers who can talk.
Wonwoo will keep dreaming about Soonyoung; and he’ll wait for a life where he doesn’t have to dream him up, where Soonyoung is tangible and within reach again.
(twt @/gyuhansoup or @/moonbreezeao3)